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knowing oneself

Lately there are lots of templates on Instagram where you will answer questions about yourself, it’s like an online version of the good old slambook! 🙂

I first saw it from my dear friend Gillian’s IG stories so I downloaded some of the templates from TheSundayChapter IG and answered them. Sharing some here:

Having been able to answer these templates quickly and enjoyably made me happy and realized that I know myself much better now compared when I was much younger. I guess that’s just how life works, as you go through life, as you experience lots of things, both good and not-so-good, you get a better understanding of who you are, what you prefer and why you prefer this one thing over the other, why you do what you do and you are happy about it (no need to explain yourself to anyone), you know your negotiables and non-negotiables which is really liberating. You don’t depend your choices and decisions on someone else because you know what works well for you and what’s not, and you are very cool with it (talking about acceptance :)).  

Knowing oneself is a lifetime process, so we better enjoy and love as we discover new things about us day by day. As we age, we change our preferences, though there are things that we will hold dear until the end, we improve (hopefully), we learn to let go of things quite easily because we now know what matters most, and we know that it’s never about material things but about our God (our life with Him here and thereafter), our life’s purpose, and every single person we are blessed to have around us. These people help shape who we are, and vice versa, so let’s strive to have positive influences towards each other, let’s walk together towards goodness and righteousness, all for God’s glory. 

Discovering oneself will not be always a walk in the park, sometimes you will have doubts, sometimes you will be judged and you might get off track and feel sad about it but you have to be reminded who you really are, in Christ. Your worth is dependent in Christ alone, He knows who you really are and He loves you just the same, unconditionally for all eternity. 

So God created mankind in his own image,
    in the image of God he created them;
    male and female he created them. – Genesis 1:27

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“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”
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So far, so good…

Hello everyone! How are you??

Hope you are all doing great!! 

We’re on the 63rd day of 2018, 2 months passed by so quickly, right?

My first two months were great! Thank and praise God for all that He has done and for all the blessings He has poured upon my family and all my loved ones and friends.

The biggest blessing/answered prayer so far is my little sister’s pregnancy. 🙂 Our family is soooo happy and grateful for this blessing, such a great way to start the year!! She’s on her 3rd month and we are so looking forward to the new addition to our growing family.

We are also counting the days to our first out of the country trip for the year, it will be my first time to travel with my sister and brother-in-law to Bangkok. It’s my sister’s first out of the country trip so we are all very excited. 🙂

With regards to my #Goals for 2018, I think I am doing okay, I have 10 more months to fulfill most of it. 🙂

Read and study the Old Testament. – I’m on Genesis 16. I am slow but it is okay. Reading and studying the Word of God is not a contest, it’s about consistency, commitment, and building a personal relationship with the Author. 🙂

Finish one-to-one discipleship with muy bella, Mel. Then participate at the Victory weekend and be water-baptized as a Christian. – I hope to be water-baptized this year, I am not rushing this, I will happily and peacefully follow God’s timeline.

Join VictoryFort’s feeding program regularly. – I will join VictoryFort’s activities after my baptism. 🙂

Buy an oven and learn how to bake cookies, cupcakes and cakes. – My target for this is next quarter. I hope to buy an oven by April and start baking thereafter. 🙂

Save up Pxxx,xxx by end of the year. – I think this is attainable. 🙂

Read atleast one book per month. – I’ve finished reading these 3 books but I started reading them in late 2017.

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I hope to finish these 2 by this month, March.

I bought 4 new books at the Big Bad Wolf Book Fair, here they are:

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I hope to read all these books this year, in addition to the original pile below…

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Learn French using the Duolingo app. – This one I am not consistent. I should start again very soon!!

For the first two months of the year, I had a couple of disappointments which caused me momentary heartbreak but it’s all okay now. I think I was able to manage my emotion well, and hold my peace thus no relationship was compromised. I have forgiven and learned to let it go. I know it is never right to judge anyone, but because of what happened, I had a better understanding and appreciation of why God has commanded us not to judge our brethren.

“Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you.” – Matthew 7:1-2

I have been judged, and it hurt so much. People, even family or friends, will not always understand why we do what we do, so it is best to not judge. Each has his/her own reasons for doing things, in most cases, only God is our witness and He’s the only one who understands, accepts, forgives and loves us, no matter what.

Anyway, I am so grateful that God is always ready to listen to us, to hear our prayers, our cries, and He is with us to comfort, to give us peace and the assurance that everything will be okay because He is our Father, He is in control and He has the best plans for each of us.

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Anyway, on a lighter note, I am very happy with my increasing commitment to working out/exercise. When I say “workout/exercise,” it means joining Thursday Bootcamp, planking and abs workout at home (checkout JessicaSmithtv), playing squash and doing treadmill at the company gym. I’ve recently discovered what will entertain me while I run, that is watching YouTube videos, I am specifically hooked with Erwan Heusaff’s videos, because it’s 99% travel and food! 🙂

On weekends, I try to jog/walk with my momsy, and then we would have coffee  (and French toast and baked sweet potato, oooopppssss!!!) afterwards if the time permits it. I think I am officially a coffee princess, in other words – coffee addict, which is not actually bad, for as long as I am not drinking too much. 🙂

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I super love our mom-daughter bonding on weekends thru jogging/walking and drinking/eating. 😛

We are only done with the first two months of the year, but I have been blessed with so much already. So many favors and blessings from God through my loving family, well-meaning friends and colleagues at work, good health and strength, travels to look forward to, a happy, healthy, godly baby for our family in a few months.

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. – Romans 12:2

The future is bright, it is so promising and filled with God-ordained circumstances. I am very hopeful and expectant of all things good, lovely and beautiful because my hope rests in the Lord.

We wait in hope for the Lord;
    he is our help and our shield.
21 In him our hearts rejoice,
    for we trust in his holy name.
22 May your unfailing love be with us, Lord
    even as we put our hope in you. – Psalms 33:20-22

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My foretaste of sweet November

I wouldn’t normally share something too personal here or even in my Instagram account. I guess I’m that kind of person. Not really secretive, but just not too open to many people. I have friends who know very personal things about me but they’re just a handful.

For some happy but strange reasons, I feel like sharing something that recently happened to me through my space here. I initially thought of posting it on Instagram but hesitated at the last minute.

My friends know that I have lots of Korean actor crushes, just watching Korean series makes me happy. 😍 So for a long time already, the “men in my life” are all Korean actors. Unfortunately, no men of the same nationality have tickled my fancy for a couple of years now. I’ve fallen for the wrong person (yet again) a couple of years back, it was tough for me because I really liked him but I had to do what’s right and tried my best to forget about him. I did succeed not because I’m strong enough, but because God is, and God comforted me all those times that I was hurting so badly until I finally learned let go and let God to take care of my heart. Now I am much better than okay and I have learned a lot from that experience. ☺️ Again, because of God’s unconditional great love, and understanding and support from friends who didn’t judge but loved me just the same.

Just recently, in my quiet time, God’s been speaking to me, on point, and I’m really glad and grateful each time this happens, because sometimes God can be quiet, but in those quiet moments, we just need to trust that He’s working behind the scenes (because He does), and when all things are ready, the dream, the wish, the answered prayer will present itself right in front of you and you will have no other more fitting response than to praise God and cry out of uncontainable joy and gratitude to HIM for blessing you with something much more than you’ve asked for or even imagined.

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On a rather ordinary work day, lately when I say ordinary, it means busy, I’ve met someone who have warmed my heart in an instant, it was very unexpected, such a sweet encounter.

Liking someone and seeing him as a man rarely happens to me. At my age, I liked very few, whether I admit it or not, I guess I am picky. When I see someone new, it’s either I like him or I don’t. But of course, I can be friends with him whether I see him as a man or just a friend.

I know myself when it comes to “liking someone” on the first meeting, it all begins with all things tangible: the height, the “presence,” his voice, the way he speaks, the way he carries himself and relates to people; and then to something intangible: that is, the way he makes me feel, unknowingly, naturally.

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I don’t know if I will get to see him after that encounter, so I just enjoyed the short time we were together, I think a good one hour or so… 🙂

As of this writing, I couldn’t actually remember how exactly he looks like. I just know that I would like to know him more, given the chance. What I remember and would like to cherish for as long as I can is the way he made me feel. I feel happy just realizing that my heart is still capable of appreciating a new person and knowing that the possibility of meeting My Boaz is just right around the corner… 

In my heart I am comforted to know that the Lord is preparing His best for me. And I am willing to wait for God’s love story to unfold slowly, beautifully, sweetly because He is the one and only author of my life. 😍