I wouldn’t normally share something too personal here or even in my Instagram account. I guess I’m that kind of person. Not really secretive, but just not too open to many people. I have friends who know very personal things about me but they’re just a handful.
For some happy but strange reasons, I feel like sharing something that recently happened to me through my space here. I initially thought of posting it on Instagram but hesitated at the last minute.
My friends know that I have lots of Korean actor crushes, just watching Korean series makes me happy. 😍 So for a long time already, the “men in my life” are all Korean actors. Unfortunately, no men of the same nationality have tickled my fancy for a couple of years now. I’ve fallen for the wrong person (yet again) a couple of years back, it was tough for me because I really liked him but I had to do what’s right and tried my best to forget about him. I did succeed not because I’m strong enough, but because God is, and God comforted me all those times that I was hurting so badly until I finally learned let go and let God to take care of my heart. Now I am much better than okay and I have learned a lot from that experience. ☺️ Again, because of God’s unconditional great love, and understanding and support from friends who didn’t judge but loved me just the same.
Just recently, in my quiet time, God’s been speaking to me, on point, and I’m really glad and grateful each time this happens, because sometimes God can be quiet, but in those quiet moments, we just need to trust that He’s working behind the scenes (because He does), and when all things are ready, the dream, the wish, the answered prayer will present itself right in front of you and you will have no other more fitting response than to praise God and cry out of uncontainable joy and gratitude to HIM for blessing you with something much more than you’ve asked for or even imagined.
On a rather ordinary work day, lately when I say ordinary, it means busy, I’ve met someone who have warmed my heart in an instant, it was very unexpected, such a sweet encounter.
Liking someone and seeing him as a man rarely happens to me. At my age, I liked very few, whether I admit it or not, I guess I am picky. When I see someone new, it’s either I like him or I don’t. But of course, I can be friends with him whether I see him as a man or just a friend.
I know myself when it comes to “liking someone” on the first meeting, it all begins with all things tangible: the height, the “presence,” his voice, the way he speaks, the way he carries himself and relates to people; and then to something intangible: that is, the way he makes me feel, unknowingly, naturally.
As of this writing, I couldn’t actually remember how exactly he looks like. I just know that I would like to know him more, given the chance. What I remember and would like to cherish for as long as I can is the way he made me feel. I feel happy just realizing that my heart is still capable of appreciating a new person and knowing that the possibility of meeting My Boaz is just right around the corner… ♥♥
In my heart I am comforted to know that the Lord is preparing His best for me. And I am willing to wait for God’s love story to unfold slowly, beautifully, sweetly because He is the one and only author of my life. 😍